Life just doesn't change

I just need a break... in so many ways.

1. Gary needs to find a job.  Him being home all day with little or no income is getting to me.  I'm feeling a huge amount of stress.
2. I need time to myself...  alone... away from everyone!  For more than a few hours!!!!
3. I'm not good at making joint decisions.  I want to buy a new computer.  I hate having to "make reservations" to use the computer.  But when I say I'm thinking of getting a laptop he shoots me down.
4. I want to be able to do what I want when I want and that includes spending money!
5. I don't know what I'm going to do about myself, my weight and my health.  I have no determination or will-power.
6. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT DO TO WITH MY LIFE OR WHERE I'M GOING!!!!!!