I have suddenly come to a stark realization... I'm not good enough.
Not good enough to be anyone's one and only love;
Not good enough to be anyone's friends for life;
Not good enough to be the most important person in anyone's life...
The man that claims that he loves me and tells me he can't get through life without me, runs off to be with another woman overnight. I'm not supposed to care. He spends hundreds of dollars to call her on a very regular basis, and I'm not supposed to care. I'm not good enough to be a roommate, but not good enough to marry and fully commit to.
I have friends, but I really don't have any "besties." I'm not good enough to be clued in to what is going on in anyone's life unless I just happen to talk to them.
I see stories and pictures of people off spending time with groups of friends. People they have done nearly everything with for their entire lives. I have NO ONE like that. Even my "love" doesn't like to do the majority of what I like to do.
Even my "professional" life sucks! I'm good enough on a short term basis, but when things are tough, I get the boot.
The bottom line is...I'M AN IDIOT! I don't know when to walk away. I would rather stick around and be disrespected and made a fool of over and over than to stand up for myself.
I guess I deserve what I get.
